The feeling of the un-known puts the excitement back into my life.
The feeling of your touch, put electricity back in my mind.
Many months I spent wallowing in my self pity, only to find my savior, my angel.
Cherubs surround us, filling my life with an unknown joy.
Me smiling, loving, living.
Superman is my name, playing games with your children.
Dancing with your daughter, holding hands with my baby. Can't fathom this feeling.
The future is different than I planned, and I'm okay with that.
Happy as can be right now, running around like the keebler elf.
Weathered piece of leather by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
Weathered piece of leather
Running around like a chicken, go ahead pluck my feathers
I have nothing left to give, mite as well leave me weathered.
Looking like a prince on the out side, but the ugly frog teases from within
Nothing positive to say, so I keep to myself. The unknown scares me, reluctance in abundance
To paint a pretty picture would be like asking David to hold an apple, impractical
I am who I am, I leave fate to weave it's Charlotte's web
Out of control breeze blows it in my face
To strong, forced to wipe tears from my eyes
A legend in the making by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
A legend in the making
To fear the unknown is to be expected, but loose no faith
For I am here.
Your Guardian.
To pull you out of the depths of hell would be my pleasure.
To bring back your sense of relief, I would make it last forever.
The thought of your smile and humor, your charisma and charm, makes me elated.
Call me Atlas, I will hold your world up, no myth.
A legend in the making, our love.
Which ever way the wind blows I know there are clear skys ahead
With your image warming me as I dream of you in my bed.
Ever faithful guardian by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
Ever faithful guardian
Standing like a stone, I am your gaurdian.
Flower petals dance like the most graceful balarina, landing on my pedestill. The wind blows by, wispering sweet nothings resembling your name.
The air is thick, but the land is fertile.
The future holds no bounds.
The rain is slowly coming, trickling down the leaves on the tree in my front yard.
By the pound, my heart is worth a million gold bricks.
Gold can take the heat, the rain, and the pain. Thankfully I have plenty in reserve.
It's hard to pin point where this treasure trove of gold came from, for I know it was always there.
Pirates came, left with nothing but their lips a quiver, for that chest, was ment for another
If the river's run dry, I will be your Noah and build you an ark.
In times of great pain, I will be your heart.
Let me put it to you this way....you had me right from the start.
0 you are my sunshine, on a cloudy day. by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
0 you are my sunshine, on a cloudy day.
O, the dreams. So fresh, so inviting. Almost never want to wake up
The waves of energy in this vivid picture seem almost cosmic
Slumber is a sweet treat, to await till the end of the night
In my dreams, I'm a cosmonaut, shooting arrows trying to make the stars align
The memories surround me, smiling, laughing, cuddling and snoring
They keep bad ju-ju out, as if they were a dream catcher
Nothing is perfect, bad things get through. Although i still think of the moments of bliss, it's like a burst of energy, making the cloudiness (dissapitate) and move through
It's like a security blanket, warm and fuzzy it feels, holding your hand
proud
Can't take anything for granted, or so they say.
This world we live in is full of situations and and trials, our hearts the jury.
We try our best to get what we want, and sometimes fail. That's life.
You look up, to see your self in the mirror, tears running off of your gorgeous face.
Thinking of the past, the future....words can not properly describe the feelings running through my mind.
Making a muck of things.
My heart is strong, so are my feelings.
For you.
For my future.
It's normal to be fearful, and shed tears.
It's OK to be down and out at times, and be leery of the unknown.
I can't say I've been down the same road as a
The future holds untold fortune,
I'm the leprachon dancing around the pot of gold.
Keeping the mind occupied for untold hours,
games galore and silver screen gems can't compare.
Biding my time, for I have never been this sure of things in life.
Past or present.
Light the fire and watch my passion ignite with a heavenly burn.
The feeling of your hand caressing my finger tips sends a chill through body. My mind starts on fire, your eyes are the only thing that can cool me down. The road we have traveled so far would have turned any other man away, but I promise to stay, for as long as you want me. Sickness, or good health. Bad fortune or tremendous luck. Make you smile or wipe away the tears. The moment that we can say this is the first day of the rest of our lives
, will be blissful. Can't baleave I found some one like you, my angel
The Hurt, the Hunger by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
The Hurt, the Hunger
The pain, the agony. My mind can't stop, either can the feeling of emptiness. no idea, no real reason. Maybe it's lost chances, maybe it's lost love. I know I have loads of both, almost to the point where i can not bare it. Loosing my grip on reality, trying to find the balance in my life is something Iv'e always had hardships with. I'm too nice' I'm too mean, i dont know what to do some times. Give up, throw it all away? No, I wont. too stubborn. I'll wallow in my own misery, choke on the tears that are sure to follow. The future is foggy, I'll float through the murky water. Rise above, here? I don't know, but where ever else it seems to be
The feeling of the un-known puts the excitement back into my life.
The feeling of your touch, put electricity back in my mind.
Many months I spent wallowing in my self pity, only to find my savior, my angel.
Cherubs surround us, filling my life with an unknown joy.
Me smiling, loving, living.
Superman is my name, playing games with your children.
Dancing with your daughter, holding hands with my baby. Can't fathom this feeling.
The future is different than I planned, and I'm okay with that.
Happy as can be right now, running around like the keebler elf.
Weathered piece of leather by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
Weathered piece of leather
Running around like a chicken, go ahead pluck my feathers
I have nothing left to give, mite as well leave me weathered.
Looking like a prince on the out side, but the ugly frog teases from within
Nothing positive to say, so I keep to myself. The unknown scares me, reluctance in abundance
To paint a pretty picture would be like asking David to hold an apple, impractical
I am who I am, I leave fate to weave it's Charlotte's web
Out of control breeze blows it in my face
To strong, forced to wipe tears from my eyes
A legend in the making by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
A legend in the making
To fear the unknown is to be expected, but loose no faith
For I am here.
Your Guardian.
To pull you out of the depths of hell would be my pleasure.
To bring back your sense of relief, I would make it last forever.
The thought of your smile and humor, your charisma and charm, makes me elated.
Call me Atlas, I will hold your world up, no myth.
A legend in the making, our love.
Which ever way the wind blows I know there are clear skys ahead
With your image warming me as I dream of you in my bed.
Ever faithful guardian by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
Ever faithful guardian
Standing like a stone, I am your gaurdian.
Flower petals dance like the most graceful balarina, landing on my pedestill. The wind blows by, wispering sweet nothings resembling your name.
The air is thick, but the land is fertile.
The future holds no bounds.
The rain is slowly coming, trickling down the leaves on the tree in my front yard.
By the pound, my heart is worth a million gold bricks.
Gold can take the heat, the rain, and the pain. Thankfully I have plenty in reserve.
It's hard to pin point where this treasure trove of gold came from, for I know it was always there.
Pirates came, left with nothing but their lips a quiver, for that chest, was ment for another
If the river's run dry, I will be your Noah and build you an ark.
In times of great pain, I will be your heart.
Let me put it to you this way....you had me right from the start.
0 you are my sunshine, on a cloudy day. by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
0 you are my sunshine, on a cloudy day.
O, the dreams. So fresh, so inviting. Almost never want to wake up
The waves of energy in this vivid picture seem almost cosmic
Slumber is a sweet treat, to await till the end of the night
In my dreams, I'm a cosmonaut, shooting arrows trying to make the stars align
The memories surround me, smiling, laughing, cuddling and snoring
They keep bad ju-ju out, as if they were a dream catcher
Nothing is perfect, bad things get through. Although i still think of the moments of bliss, it's like a burst of energy, making the cloudiness (dissapitate) and move through
It's like a security blanket, warm and fuzzy it feels, holding your hand
proud
Can't take anything for granted, or so they say.
This world we live in is full of situations and and trials, our hearts the jury.
We try our best to get what we want, and sometimes fail. That's life.
You look up, to see your self in the mirror, tears running off of your gorgeous face.
Thinking of the past, the future....words can not properly describe the feelings running through my mind.
Making a muck of things.
My heart is strong, so are my feelings.
For you.
For my future.
It's normal to be fearful, and shed tears.
It's OK to be down and out at times, and be leery of the unknown.
I can't say I've been down the same road as a
The future holds untold fortune,
I'm the leprachon dancing around the pot of gold.
Keeping the mind occupied for untold hours,
games galore and silver screen gems can't compare.
Biding my time, for I have never been this sure of things in life.
Past or present.
Light the fire and watch my passion ignite with a heavenly burn.
The feeling of your hand caressing my finger tips sends a chill through body. My mind starts on fire, your eyes are the only thing that can cool me down. The road we have traveled so far would have turned any other man away, but I promise to stay, for as long as you want me. Sickness, or good health. Bad fortune or tremendous luck. Make you smile or wipe away the tears. The moment that we can say this is the first day of the rest of our lives
, will be blissful. Can't baleave I found some one like you, my angel
The Hurt, the Hunger by HelplesslyNice, literature
Literature
The Hurt, the Hunger
The pain, the agony. My mind can't stop, either can the feeling of emptiness. no idea, no real reason. Maybe it's lost chances, maybe it's lost love. I know I have loads of both, almost to the point where i can not bare it. Loosing my grip on reality, trying to find the balance in my life is something Iv'e always had hardships with. I'm too nice' I'm too mean, i dont know what to do some times. Give up, throw it all away? No, I wont. too stubborn. I'll wallow in my own misery, choke on the tears that are sure to follow. The future is foggy, I'll float through the murky water. Rise above, here? I don't know, but where ever else it seems to be
This is my second da, confusion with my computer not letting me into my old account so i could recover my passwords for certain sites led me to create a second da. My old one is Nerdcore4Life
Favourite Movies
Soooo many. Love cinema
Favourite TV Shows
Dont really watch tv ne more
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
ces cru, tech n9ne. so on n so forth
Favourite Books
young adult books usually
Favourite Writers
???
Favourite Games
Rpg style, hack n slash are always fun.
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS3
Tools of the Trade
Thumbs
Other Interests
Being as calm cool and collective as i can be...no need for extra stress in my life
I suppose every good story, somewhere in the pages of the novel of every ones life, there are people we have to let go on a certain level. I understand this. Its amazing how much over the past few years I have been able to retain and use the information towards a better tomorrow. To say I am content with everything, that's another thing. Life is hard, and people have to do what they have to do, but the feelings of the ones we let go are going to still be there till they are able to come to grips with it all, and I shall soon enough. I'm still finding life experiences, still fighting through my faults and flaws to make myself a better person.
Very glad to be off of work for the next two days. That's about it.
The last few days have been very odd, i don't really like everything that is going on. I can't control much it seems like, and my world is almost at constant struggle with it'self. I can't keep bad thoughts out of my head, the ones that make me sad. It seems that I will forever be alone, with no one to make me smile, no one to keep me going when I feel like I have nothing left. Sheer force of will is all I have at this point it seems like, either that or I am over thinking it. IDK. One day it's all good, the next I have a shadow over my head fogging everything, not knowing
Been a wile since I wrote a journal so i thought i'd give it a go
The last few weeks have been OK. I've been focusing on work, as much as I hate the place, and it seems to be gaining me recognition, according to my managers. I have a fridge of food, good coffee, and a good mood running so I am going to keep doing what it is I am doing for it is working. Even though I AM in a good mood as of late, I cant help but feeling like I am missing something...Is it love? I have plenty of it for some one....so I don't think that is it. Is it stability?...I can see that. Knowing that I can be stubborn and procrastinating but those are just a few things